This Daily Prompt asks us what we have been putting off. For me, in short… chasing life.
I have been experiencing and connecting sufficiently for the most part over my 29 years. But, I haven’t been chasing. This year has seen that change. Or at least seen the transition period towards that change.
I have always been, I don’t know, afraid perhaps, of truly chasing my dreams. That ended this year. I have thrown caution to the wind and embarked on the pipe dream. Because, why on Earth not?
I have been sticking to my New Year’s resolution, too. I don’t usually make one. I don’t know why. I suppose because I have never been good with change. Glad I have shirked that habit.
Now, my resolution this year may seem like an odd one to most. For me though, it was very necessary. Anyone who knows me would say, ‘about bloody time!’
Be more selfish.
And I have. I have done things not through expectation or for others, or for any other cause. I have done things solely for me.
That was an important step. To stop carrying the weight of others quite so much and start carrying my own weight. It’s coming together now. I still need to remind myself due to poor habits formed over the years. But, there has been a marked improvement. And continues to be.
And now that I am chasing what I want from life, for no other reason that that’s what I want, I feel I am moving along the correct path. I still don’t know exactly where that path leads, but it is at least a path I’m carving for myself. How do I know it’s the right path?
Because I know what the wrong one looks and feels like. And I have the clarity to know this path is not a wrong one. And if it isn’t a wrong one, it’s a right one… right?
Well, hopefully. Because I am not turning back now. Not for anyone. This one is for me.